Saturday, May 31, 2008

ah! simple pleasures...

kept here for a future blue day and cuz i have to quit sending people stupid videos on facebook.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cXXm696UbKY

Friday, May 30, 2008

diet for a new millenium

We'll they have finally come up with something I can eat a lot of and still lose weight!
Here it is:



Mechanical engineering professor Masayuki Nakao said Thursday that he and his students at the University of Tokyo used a carbon-based material to produce a noodle bowl with a diameter of 1/25,000 of an inch.

(a carb is a carb though, so I do still have to pay attention).

okay. is this really what I want to write about? not really. not at all.
a bit perhaps about how good (if still c o l d) the river felt today. or i could troll around for bits of my dream in which, again, I determined the identity of mr. yahoo.
(but definitely not correctly as it was the gelato guy in linz).
mysteries...

would like to say something about my many pretty homes i think I've made, suitable for me anyway, in my unplugged way, and yet so very many days and nights alone. Good thing I love solitude. I don't regret it. (i don't think) largely because I don't believe in regret and just always love living. I guess i just don't think anyone will ever know how much, could know or care how stirred I am from looking up as I wash dishes and simply seeing the great blue door on my neighbor's house in the day's last light, or the sprinkler that would hit my kitchen window right in time with The Band. I wondered if I had the patience to be a real filmmaker what I would shoot, or show of my domestic life that wouldn't just show an aging woman alone, ohhowsad...but might catch something of the grace and privilege of it all.

maybe then the question: are our lives more what they seem from the outside or how we feel as we live them?
how to convey the latter - when it's so subtle and constant? and who could possibly care?

dunno. maybe I'll just sit by the fire, have just a couple thousand more bowls of nanonoodles and muse on it.
most women in the world should be so lucky.