Tuesday, August 23, 2011

August 23

Oh brother. Just useless this eve. Too hot a run today? Did manage to reconfigure back studio. Finally able to reclaim that space. The mad laboratory is largely good to go. Hoped to throw the switches and get things going (things I think I wont do in the studio downtown). My mind poplates with projects but my body will not get vertical. Anyway, I think I'm just trying to stay awake until some reasonable hour. I think I've stayed in dreamscape all day. Dreamt for the first time in a loooooong time of Vati. So very clearly. Him right there. Talked to my mum in the morning about it and the dream. "You know it's his birthday.". I know the date but have recently, significantly, lost track of time. Lost August pretty much. Well ... Happy Birthday,Vati. How I would have loved to see your incredible face as sn old man's face. To hear that voice.

Well at least I heard it in my dream. In the dream I had found just the right place for thanksgiving. I told you in detail about it, because it was splendid- outside and ivy-covered. I knew you would like it but I didn't invite you.

I feel bad about that.

Come to see me again, anyway - would you? There is just so much to talk about.
I wont be so inconsiderate, so 'of the living' next time.
Yes. Come to see me again soon. Too brief. Still ... kind of amazing. How clear and true.

Monday, August 22, 2011