Friday, May 9, 2008

still water. (i miss you so much)

As if
As if
I could reach you
As if
As if I could know you
could know that time in your life
Someone (I think) pushed me into the pool
Or I fell (did you) and the pool was deeper by twice than it was and I was in deep
And I thought of you
And I thought this could be bad
But it isn’t . it is beautiful and I won’t miss a bit of it
And I will rise to the surface
Like you and I will feel the blue sweet water all around
Knowing
the distance between me and air is not too long not at all
And as I near it
I trouble
the surface and
it is fantastic to see how my arm’s movement
moves, dances the light on the surface
but it takes too long
just a bit too long and
I
Feel and then know and
then know the surface
is perhaps seconds too far and
Beauty doesn’t matter and
all I thought would happen is wrong
and
I will drown here
like you
with you - as ever I was

not to surface
again.








(we miss you so.
it's all still beautiful.
but so changed.. )

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